In my recent days one thing started me to worry. It is my wanting or even I should say desire to get attention. I mean social attention from woman or I think more about man. And one conflict arise for me is that I don't consider myself as a lonely person I have few friends and constantly meeting with them, but there is some empty space in me I still feel lack of attention and I don't know how to fill that space. So I know that woman loves attention and that man's worse mistake is to let feel her woman lack of attention, but for some reason I also like attention and more someone gives it more I am close with them. In my relationship with girls I see now that if trying to give attention to my girlfriend later I am starting to feel miserable. I begin to think that she doesn't gives me a kind of attention that I am worth. Of course such situation later starts to damage friendship.
So what this all about? Am I narcissistic person? Or it is my inner girl's person driven flow behind my male persona? I may be a little narcissistic but it is considered even healthy according to
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissism. I really enjoying helping others whenever it is within my abilities range or moreover I never considered myself as really narcissistic person. So it leaves us with second option that this thing is driven by inner girl persona...
If I am right it is a clear sign of my inner girl and that I am transgendered person. And that I need to more and more accept it otherwise I won't find my place in my life.
Ohh and about my introduction part 3 I still not ended it for some unknown reasons I stuck with it but it will be published anyway so don't worry ;)
