So after walk I entered McDonald and as expected saw a lot of families with children nothing unusual. There was quite short queue but for some unknown reasons my turn came after a bit of waiting. As I waited I began to observe one female worker who looked and acted for her age very childish. She was with long black hairs with two long pigtails something like this:
and McDonald's hat that was nothing strange but her dramatic eyes make-up and her childish feminine acting for some reason made me to laugh. She was very feminine but out of place I mean she really stud out from all other workers. Well why I talking about it because I never experienced similar thing before even I saw many more strange girls then one I talked about. I think it must somehow be related to my recent findings about crossdreaming which may changed my view of woman.
Next thing which was quite new experience is when waited I saw really pretty and beautiful woman of course she was mommy with two cute little girls and I think that any straight man would be attracted to her but that moment I didn't feel a attraction to her I looked but not a single desire spark instead admired her good sense of style and especially leggings. What was this? Inner girl in me? Or somehow my sexual orientation changed and I became gay? I questioned many time before this am I gay? But never really I could answer yes. I never looked into gay porn or pictures. So I stay with first option that than my inner girl was active that moment. But this still don't explain my behavior. Because now is known that sexual orientation is biological and don't change through life time.
I will look into this later after I observe myself in more situations to confirm that woman don't attract me more. Talking about my girlfriend she now is on students exchange program abroad so we will meet only on holiday season. And then I will look how I respond to her.
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